Giallo

Pulp: cheap paper and tissue plots; blood on the roses. Poshlost. Square jaws, bared breasts, punk music and broken glass. Don’t drink the water, don’t breathe the air.

Deny, Attack, Reverse Victim and Offender

We would have been so happy together, I know it. That spark of connection, the way my heart leapt to see her, the sound of her laughter when I’d made some particular joke or other: that’s the basis of a real relationship. What could Escamillo offer her? Fleeting, fading. Physical chemistry, cheap economics. I offered love, pure love, and that wasn’t enough. Should I have simply swallowed her insults? Accepted her abuse? Did I not have the right to defend my honor?

We were worried for our lives, the fourteen of us, a wall of fragile human meat surrounding a four thousand pound truck. The look in her eyes when the brake lights went off… there was fury there, and madness. Bloodlust. We had to protect ourselves. Make it home again tonight safe, that’s what they tell us; whatever else happens, make it home safe. Should we have stood there and let ourselves be run over? She thought we weren’t serious and we had to show her.

We have been so kind, so restrained; we have lethal weapons, but we never use them, are not allowed to use them. And what thanks do we get? Rubber bullets may smash the occasional eye, but you can live without an eye. Tear gas may have been banned in war, but this isn’t a war. They say it is, but if it is, we’ll win it. They think we’re a joke, and we have to show them we mean business. There is no hunting like the hunting of men. We didn’t make them come here. We didn’t make them poison the city against us. They did that on their own.

What choice did we have? Were we not within our rights?

Hugger-Mugger

Hot nights prick dreams of blood out of their panting, heaving sides, tongues grown too big for their mouths, chins wet with slobber. In the warehouses, the revolutionaries stockpile guns, toys against tanks, the pitiful arsenal of the civilian, but in Dallas paw hits pavement and sizzles as they run. A wild, airless night, humid and heavy, full of frogcall and the thrum of cicadas, the night sky pressing against the city like wet rope, and they hunt.

They have carved names into the leather they wear around their necks, their wrists, their ankles, crisscrossed over the almost human curve of their chests: fascists, bootlickers, scabs, all the doomsday men in ill-fitting suits and ugly haircuts that have gathered to chant and wave torches. They circle the crowds, picking off stragglers, the slow moving, the drunk, the fat hunters with Wyoming tickets in their pockets, the Saturday warriors in their polyester camo. The alleys grow slick and sticky.

In the morning there will be empty seats, abandoned hotel rooms, empty book depositories. The air will roil with copper, iron, the black bodies of flies, the hope of a storm on the verge of breaking. They will return to work, collars peeking coquettishly from beneath apron straps, but tonight they are free, and roused, and revenged.

Came Back Wrong

A very long time ago:

You go away to war, you lose a leg, you lie in a religious hospital for years, first angry, then bitter, then rotting, then resigned. At home you have a wife, a child, an uncle. Maybe your mother is still alive, but it seems unlikely; she was old. Eventually you tire of the sermons from the hospitaller monks and so you drag yourself out of bed and onto your crutch and start the long walk home, a pilgrimage in reverse, shedding whatever faith you might have once followed on the way, left on the road like fluid from a popped blister.

War has not improved your temper.

When you arrive home, everyone flinches when they see you, first in bafflement, then in fear. Your neighbors never liked you. Your family, come to that, never liked you, either. But still: you have to close the loop of your life before you can do anything else, so you drag yourself to the house you left, the wife you only half-remember, the son whose face you have clean forgotten, even if the normal growth of years hadn’t changed him beyond all knowing.

You walk through the door without knocking.

Your wife looks up and recoils. “Martin…?” she says, and “Yes,” you say, but so too does the man sitting at the table. He looks like you, or like you used to look, but when he stands, he stands on two legs, and his face is unpuckered with disappointment.

Hoarders and Wasters

You are patient and unkind as the grey light of a winter’s dawn among the canyons of downtown, anonymous, one more white face beneath a dark cap, bundled in a nylon jacket. No one notes your lack of breath hanging in the early morning air, not with the face mask digging into the waxy flesh of your ears.

You do not hunt merely to survive. True enough, you prefer the mist coiling into a room, and teeth white against bruised lips, a mouth pressed to your chest until it drinks; romance might be dead, but so are you, so. You have at your command all the tricks and tools of the common man, and all the patience and skill of four hundred years. Your hand does not quiver on the trigger, your breathing does not cause the barrel to weave.

He stops for coffee, as ever he has, and you are scant feet behind him when he emerges. The gun kicks in your hand, jams once, twice, but he is already falling. Sheer waste, the blood spreading over the sidewalk, but when meat has turned it must be discarded.

Only the Rich Get Rich

You got turned sometime in 1913, 1914, and at first it seemed like a good deal, eternal life, eternal youth, the blood-red music of the night, all that late night glamour, but the guy who turned you got bored real quick and dropped you in Spokane five years later and it’s been rough ever since.

Like, you don’t need to eat, or anyway not food you have to buy, but you still need a place to park the old corpse come sunrise, and that’s just been harder and harder to come by over the years. Ain’t like you get alimony, and there ain’t a lot of jobs that fit your hours. Forget climbing the ladder, too; no one schmoozes with the night owl shift, and a promotion inevitably means sunlight.

You work in the mines for decades, another sunless, miserable face coming out of the gloom, but no one swinging a pick ever got rich that way, and you sure didn’t. You sold stolen weed for a while, using those keen extra-human senses to sniff out free ditch weed along the highway before the cops could burn it, but they’ve legalized the damn stuff now and nobody’s buying from a clammy weirdo squatting in an abandoned warehouse anymore, not when there’s a clean white store with everyone in a collared shirt every three miles.

Murder’s fun and all but it doesn’t pay the bills. Nobody even carries cash anymore.